As of last friday I just turned the not so magical age of 28 years old. Talk about boring, I can already get in a rated R movie without my Mommy, I can buy a pack of smokes (This urge only come to be if the following is being done), And I can do a Jager Bomb whenever I please. Yup 28 is just one step closer to an AARP card and free coffee at Kroger on senior discount day. Up until this point in my life I have never even thought of keping a journal, writting in a diary, or blogging so I really cant beleive I'm even starting this. The closest thing I have done to a diary is keeping track of my calories when I was trying to gain weight to play college football. Ok enough with the pleasentries lets get to it. I am writing this because I need a release, but I'm the guy that everyone leans on in their time of weakness so I cant look weak to anyone else. Its a shitty burden but one I carry well as it was passed on from my father who did the same.
Up until this time about 2 years ago I would like to say I had a pretty good grip on this thing called life. Had a great job, an amazing little boy, house, cars, motorcycles, and the best of all great parents. I am one of those people that are blessed to get along great with their parents. I love my Mom to death and my Dad and I are so much alike most people would think we are brothers not father and son. The scary part is my son is falling right in line to be the third generation of the unbroken mold. I was sitting pretty minus a few problems with my wife but being married isnt easy so I kept pushing through. That was when I got the news that would rock my life and send me on a tailspin that I have yet to recover from. My mentor, my best friend, the strongest man I knew, my Father was diagnosed with cancer. After an 8 hour operation, 4 days in ICU, and another 13 in the hospital he came out just fine and cancer free. Me on the other hand it shook me to the core and brought my life in to focus. The days of thinking about my future went straight out the window and I began living in the moment...... The problem I was about to find out is living in the moment has a tendency to tank your future.....
More to come,
HG
